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 3:00 P.M.

        I feel like I'm getting lazier as the days of this lay off go on. I don't go to bed until 2 or 3 am & I don't get out of bed until 2 or 3 pm. It's a vicious cycle. I also found out that I'm now laid off for another week. GREAT. I don't know why I feel like I'm being punished. If my unemployment would just go through I'd feel 1000x better. 

           I feel like I'm in an endless cycle & I cant get out. Every time something good happens, something else comes along & smacks me right in the face. Like I've finally found the love of my life, the one I want to spend my forever with. Yet I get laid off from a job that I actually enjoy for once. It reminds me of my favorite factory, but with all of these pluses.

            I finally moved out of my parents house, I live with my hunny and sister-in-law. I also have a job I enjoy. So why does it feel like I'm failing? Why do I feel like I'm not trying hard enough when that's all I've done is try? I know it gets better because nothing can stay bad forever, but that doesn't make me feel any better as of right now. 

        We made our own little fire last night, right on our front sidewalk, lol. It was 2 something in the morning & we were just outside having some fun. 

        Autumn, my sister-in-law, has been getting me to watch scary movies with her, followed by a funny one of course. Last night we watched Polaroid, which was actually pretty good. The girl would take pictures with her camera & whoever was in the photo would be the next one to die. They killed the monster thing haunting the photos finally at the end though. The ending could have been better though, I love some romance & those main characters definitely had some crushing going on. The only thing I'm asking for was a kiss, lol. 

Today is a new day, I don't know what's planned for the day. But I plan to make the most of it, even if it is just laying on the couch watching tv. 

Bye for now!

Chetta :)